#66 Confessions of a Cutter

I have struggled for the past 4 months with self-mutilation. Whenever I feel upset, I cut myself. This is a poem I have written about my own personal experience. Hopefully it can help someone out there.

This poem originally was published in Sad Poems - Depression and Suicide Poems

Confessions of a Cutter

by Kristin Evans

Silence
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin

Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain

Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain

Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin

Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I

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Shelby

Hey i really like your poem. people look at my arms and they are like why just why do u do that. they dont understand and neither do i. but i feel you.
Desirae

I can really relate to your poem, I started cutting myself about 2 years back and right now I'm 15. Every day seems to be harder than the last and I don't know if its going to get better, and it seems like no one cares or would care if you cut deep enough.
kylee

OMG! This poem is exactlly how i feel NOONE understands me and why i cut. I thought it would be a one time thing then it turned into nightly. once i read this i do it less and less. It is hung in my room to remind me that there are people like me and people who want to stop. i know my friends want me to stop but it is too hard i have tries for almost 8 months and i know by reading this and asking for help i can stop. i just want to be cared for and understood!
Lia

this poem has hit me somewhere and somehow, but i dont were or how. its awsome and i can realte to nearly all of it.
cynthia

Wow this poem shows me that there are more people like me that make pain on the outside to block pain on the inside. I love it!
Cassie

I think this is a really good one. I love it.
Robin

This poems is great I had done it for 2 years and I think that this poem can help alot of people that think cutting is the answer to slove the problems but cutting isn't the answer!
Breanna

Whoa that is exactly how i feel and think. Your poem is so amazing and moving!
shelly

i really like this poem to. its true no one really understands unless they do it to, or have done it. some friends of mine juss hit me or get mad well other friends will try to help and they do and i try to help them. if ne one reads this i luv u all and i dont know what i would do wit out u guys. good job poems really help me.
lydia

this poem toched me becasue i still cut myself and i really wish that my ex boyfriend was here because he cuts himself too ofen and he just dosent understand that there are people out there who love him
aaron

i like this because i can actually relate to it because i cut and noone does understand why i do it and i too dont understand
Only Me

OMG! i love this poem so much. it's the best poem i've read so far! you are a very talented girl, Kristen. hope you make it through rough times without hurting yourself. Thanx for the inspiration.
Ashley

I have been a cutter for 5 years and your peom captivated my feelings. You did a great job so keep writting you have real talent.
Tiffany

Helleo; This is Tiffany from Boaz Al. I just read your poem it is really good. I can relate in many ways to it. I used to cut; Until a year ago. I finally got help. Life is so much better. I hope all the best to you.
chris

i can reality to this poem
Zypher

I too, like so many others, understand.
stacey

I know excatly what u are going through i have been dealing with self mutilation for the last three years. im only 14. i amgoing through deep deep depression and have tried to commite suicide numerous times and i have been in a mental hospital for suicide and cutting.
Cassandra

Wow! I can see were you're coming from. I've been cutting since I was 11 and I'm gonna' be 14. When I read this poem, it like grabbed my heart. It made me feel numb. Overall it was a very emotional poem to me.
Sydney

I'm sorry to hear that you have this problem, i am bipolar and understand how you feel i cut, and everytime someone would look at me all i could do was feel like i failed to control myself. i get called "emo" by many kids at my school all the time, and i know that it is emo to cut, but people just don't see the sadness in people like us. you just gotta live with it. best of wishes to you. i give your poem a 10/10 for heart.
Gina

I understand exactly how you feel, i do the same thing almos every week, i've tried to stop, but it has become kind of an addiction, and i can't stop doing it. I luv the poem

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