#64 Confessions of a Cutter

I have struggled for the past 4 months with self-mutilation. Whenever I feel upset, I cut myself. This is a poem I have written about my own personal experience. Hopefully it can help someone out there.

This poem originally was published in Sad Poems - Depression and Suicide Poems

Confessions of a Cutter

by Kristin Evans

Silence
Only tears
As I press the blade
Against my pale skin

Red
The blood flows
From the wounds
Echoing my inner pain

Satisfaction
As I feel the knife
Slicing into me
I only deserve pain

Anguish
As I realize what I've done
I feel accomplishment
As I gaze at the marks upon my skin

Stares
People are horrified
Don't understand why
Neither do I

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terrance

ya i like this poem i used to be a cutter and i haven't cut in 4 years now but i know where your coming from when you say you dont understand why i never did till i started helping people and realizing that life is to short and to bleed when it goes wrong isn't the answer.
krys

this poem is great. i've been useing all my will-power that i have left to stop myself from cutting myself. my will-power is almost at an end. i just hope that when my will-power does end, there will be someone who will stop me from cutting myself. i've already started using my nails to cut little holes into my arms. i hope that there is someone out there that can help me be free again.
brea

this has put all of my pain into a simple poem. it makes me realize im not the only one who mutates my wrist to feel safe. but it touches a persons true feelings.
marissa

this really touched me. i am going to print this out and i am gonna post it in my journal. i am a cutter getting help. i dont understand why i do what i do. That is why i am on the internet tring to understand.
brian

wow i really didnt think there was that many people out there who feel like me. ive been cutting myself for like a year now.
emely

i do the same thing people think am crazy but i guess they will never understand
soccerchick3324

i have been cutting since 2006 i have tried to stop but i cant i cut myself on the leg 2day. I recently spent nine months in a phyceatric hospital for cutting and suicide attempts. i wish you the best
Reba

I really uderstand this. ive been a cutter for almost a year. I have been in hospital after hospital for sicidal attempts and cutting. I am honme now but i dont know how much longer i can hold up. I love ur poem I relate to it sooo much. I write poetry about my cutting and suicide too. To anyone else like me i hope you get threw this. It will hopefully pass over you or you can get help, like im trying to. I love u all
Xandra

This poem hit the spot. I used to cut and know exactly how it is, the whole rush of it was watching the blood pour down my arm. I still feel the want to do it again but I refuse to get addicted again. Just know your not alone and thank you for your beautiful poem.
Tiffany

I FELL THE SAME WAY. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TAKE ONE LOOK AT EMO'S AND JUDGE THEM BY THE WAY THEY LOOK OR ASK. EMO'S ARE THE NICEST PEOPLE ON EARTH!
megan

This is a very good poem I love the way they use their words. Hope to find a lot more like it I give it Two thumbs up
Hillary

your poem spoke so much of how i feel in side. i loved it. keep up the good work!
Elizabeth

i luv this poem cause like others i know how that feels :\
mickey

this poem is very good. it moves me in cool ways.
TAMARA

i like this poem its like some one has picked through my brain. -tamara
alice

this poem is really deep and i respect tis peom becaue i have suffered from cutting myslef as well. its so sad but i dont hink when i do it. i give you a 10
april

I Think that most self injury poems are great. I was a cutter myself i even got to the point of burning when i was under the influence and now i have that to look at for the rest of my life i hate it. loved the poem i could totally relate.
tiffany

hey this is tiffany. im from alaska but i recently moved to kentucky last year. ever since we moved here i have been nothing but depressed and i have been cutting alot. for a while i wasnt. i fell in love with a guy named joseph,but we broke up cuz he called and sed either i quit smoking or its over. that was 2 dayz before our 5 month anniversary. since then i have been very depressed and i have tried killing myself. i cut almost deep enough,but then my brother levi stopped me. since then my frend josh checks my wrists every day to make sure i havent done it. it just gets so hard and i feel like no one cares.
Jamie

I Really loved ur poem, I feel lyke i can relate 2 it, i cut but really dont understand why, people think its just a "emo" think, but its more than that, we have problems and thats how we deal i guess, im a "closet poet" so ur poem inspires me for my own poems, i know there is people out there who feels and thinks as i do.
Jessica H.

*tear tear*this pome means alot case i cut to so i just want to say you aren't alone jessi

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