#61 Darkness

Lately, I had been feelings like the outsider among my friends and I felt like no one really understood me and knew what was going on in my head.

This poem originally was published in Sad Poems - Depression and Suicide Poems

Darkness

by Emily

I'm swimming all alone in a pool of darkness
and I feel like darkness is slowly pulling me under
I yell for help but no one is there to hear it
I begin to see the water at eye level
and I kick and flail
fighting to stay above the darkness
But the darkness won't let go of its hold on me
and I slowly begin to give in
to the feeling that lies below the water line
the waters starts to fill my lungs
the lungs that once held so much life
yet now they allow the murky water to replace that
I know that this path doesn't lead to happiness
But why doesn't someone grab my hand
pull me from darkness's grasp?
because no one knows I stand at the boundary
the boundary between light and dark
so I give in to the thing that holds me
All of the strength and all of the courage
that I once held in my heart
can't save me from the water
So I slowly slip below the world of conscientiousness
undetected by the occupants of that world
I don't want to fight anymore
I've given into darkness

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Janice

I often feel that I am drowning. sometimes in a sea of loneliness, sometimes in an overwhelming ocean of responsibility, sometimes simply in my tears. I can relate to the feelings conveyed. I don'T know whether to feel glad that I am not alone or sad that someone is having to feel the way I do.
smita

this poem hs rily touched me. lik it
Kayley

Hey i lyked yur poem itz pretty gud it kinda remindz me of me lolz cuz it seemz lyke im losen my friendz 2 yea well g2g peace gurl
Teala

this poem has touched me because i next move i make i was going to drown myself in the river. i am in a wheelchair from a car accdent 4 years ago. i'm 17 years old and i suffer depression really bad. i have did pretty stupid things to my body.
abhijit

this poem touches my heart bcz i am going through the same condition. too good.
Fabio

I like to believe that we suffer for a reason and that reason his to makes us stronger so that when the time comes we may be ready for it. You are strong, now how many people can say that.
Kaycee

I feel it everyday. thank you.
Roz

It was jus really good. I especially liked how u used darkness and drowning as a metaphor for suicide.
tyler

i like this poem beckuse they spoke to me about how i felt about this woreld
emily

you took the words out of my mind and mouth
florintina

it feel s nobody care s or understand you . i had those feelings a good few time s
nai

hey, your poem has touched me, helps me to know im not the only one out there feeling the way i do. your poem is top . xx
amy

i love this poem. i mean i can really relate to her emotions. i am so glad i am not the only one who feels like this.
sasha

I really liked this poem it got to me since i love poems like that . love it
Marcos

Emily, this is a very powerful poem. The feeling is almost exactly how everyone feels when in depression. I applause you.
Bianca

That was a really touching poem. Kinda what i feel like. Your poem was really good. Hopefully they will get you somewhere in life.
Lela

I know where ur at i sit at the edge myself occasionly dipping my feet in but im still here i guess im lucky cause when i need one a hand eventally appeares i hope the same can eventally happen for you try to hold on for urself though cause like you said theres not usaully a hand so ive just been lucky i guess. -another depression chic
Sara

AWESOME POEM! I LOVE IT!
Nerissa

I like this becuase it shows who I am, I am rejected allot, I cut myself, and burn aswell, no one really understands my pain but, I always say darkness holds me tightly, and that's why this means allot to me.
lucy

wow, this is exactly how i feel. i'm 14 years old and i've suffered from depression since i was 4, when my family fell apart. ever since then, the pain has only grown. even in elementry school i had really low self esteem. i'd look in the mirror and all i'd ever see was a dissapointment. the only thing i felt i could control was my weight so i relied on not eating to make myself feel better. i turned from not eating to burning my arm with a curling iron. the only thing that felt real to me was pain. i still feel that way. anyway, this poem can really relate to me because my depression reached a point where i got pulled under that dark water and couldn't face the world anymore. the past 2 months i've spent in my room. i can't attend school because to be truthful, i can't even attempt to leave my house. that little hope that i had i've lost. i feel so alone. my biggest fear is taking that first step outside. i'm paralized. i can't do anything, or at least i've convinced myself i can't do anything because i feel so hopeless and worthless. and now i'm having to face with the fact that i might be taken away from my family because they think my parents aren't responible enough because i'm not attending school. so, to anyone out there, if you get how i feel, just don't let depression conquer your life. fight for it, because if you don't, you might end up like me and if you end up like me your just gonna feel dead, but trapped inside a body living in a worst hell than you already are

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#61 Darkness

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