#24 Power Of Pain

This is a poem I wrote when I first was diagnosed with Social Anxiety. It was a way for me to look for hope and keep trying.

It's about how I would feel everyday.

This poem originally was published in Poems on Life

Power Of Pain

by Star711

I sat alone another day.
The world was moving all around me,
but it seemed as if my life was in a standstill.
The doctors say its anxiety.
Everyone thinks anxiety means nervousness or fear,
but it is deeper than that.
Anxiety holds you prisoner.
You can't leave your house.

Ding
Dong
Ding
Dong

The doorbell rings but I can't answer.
There is too much fear inside.
You can't answer the phone.

Ring
Ring
Ring

"Telephone for you!" my family yells. I
tell them to say that I will call back, but I won't.
You can't eat.

Chomp
Bite
Chew

No, not me. The anxiety
even controls that. All the pain rushes back up with
every little thing I eat.
You can't go out.

Step
Step
Step

Everyone walking around me, but I can't move, the
apprehension paralyzes me.
Everyone says, "Be brave. You can do it. You'll make it out of this."
But sometimes I wonder if I will.
I try to combat it all, but if I attempt to do anything,
it all starts over again.

Thump
Thump
Thump

My heart beats faster and faster.
I can feel it in my chest.

Beads of sweat
Racing
Falling
Running down my forehead.
All the thoughts swarm in my brain.
The fear picks up.
It is unbearable.
I'm so frightened, but I don't know what of.
The paranoia sweeps over my body like a giant wave.
Every day I have to fight what seems to be a losing battle.
But then . . . I look outside.
I see the colors.
I see the life.
I see spirit.
I know I can do this.

Hope
Pray
Win

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THIS IS A REALLY GOOD POEMS
britt

wow amazing i like it alot
mandye

i have a certain fear of the dark. because of that, i can relate to some of the things u were speaking about. this poem has really good imagery.
Teresa

I loved your poem. I just turned 15 a few months ago and I know how you feel. Unfourtunatley, I have have been dealing with anxiety for a few years now. To tell you the truth, it's a few years too long. Latley I have lost all my friends because of my anxiety. I get random anxiety attacks and have to leave where ever I am. Everything in this poem, I have felt.
Joan

I have experienced anxiety in the past, reading this was like a source of inspiration and motivation to anyone who ever suffered from this in the past or in the future. Beautiful
charlene

touched me so much, just exactly how i feel, word for word, your mind is a very powerfull thing,,,, to think of been scared of going out, of not eating, of not wanting to see or talk to anybody, gets you so so angry, theres no reason, no answers, its true nobody seems to understand, its so easy for them to judge, your living alone in a world that nobody understands.
roxanne

this poem touch base with me. i am bipolar and i feel like that every day of my life , the struggle
linda

I was very touched by this poem. Doctor telling me I have anxiety, depression and biplolar me not wanting to believe it. Yet, feeling it daily. I sink deep and rise quickly. Then there are times I dont answer the phone or the door. Many many times I have fooled many many people acting as if everything is just perfect. Thank you for the feelings that I feel and have felt through the years put into wordws that say so much.
Deseita

This piece of work to me is very deep and change the way you view things. The work can also make you realize that god can give you the answer to everything
judy

I HAVE BEEN IN THE SAME POSITION FOR A WHILE.
emily

i love this poem because its how i feel most of the time. its great. and i hope you can do what you want to one day. hopefully that day is tomorrow! i love your poem.
eli

wow,i'm not a poet. but to my knowledge this poem was well written. the reason why it touched me so is because this feeling that you're expressing and the doctors call anxiety to me it sounds much like what i have felt when i feel overcome with depression. i never went to a doctor to be dianosed but i know that is what i have have every so often. and trust me i hate it. just the thought of it makes me shiver. you wonder how i get rid of it? i pray alot and believe me it helps it just goes away. keep writting you writting distracts your mind. and never, never give in.
virginia

i think this poem shows a lot of your feeling i wish i could do one to butb i wouldnt no where to start
Mfon

Thanks for your poem. Sometimes anxiety can make us lost our balance. Your poem is quiet encouraging, I think that's a word of advice to some of us surfering from anxiety.
Angel

WOW. I know how you feel. I suffer from Bipolar Disorder and every word you wrote is true. But there is a rainbow at the end of this black tunnel. I know there is!
Laurie

Very touching . would like to read where you are now . emotionally.
Lacey

It's sad to say but comforting toi read things like this so we all don't feel alone every day. I too suffer from this since I've been 18 and am now 26 i can say it's gotten better but to some people it's not saying much, I hope we all get better and things like writing about it can help, u might want to try the panic program a 12 week program online or u can print it, look panicprogram. com, or on google panic program, thanks best wishes
maricar

i feel the same way. and i understand how u are feeling.
melissa

i think this poem is really close to alote of peoples hearts cause my best friend suffers from anxiety attacks and this poem really helped her to see that she isn't alone.
Jamie

its a real story of an inside pain that is hard to find ways to express

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