Well, this is obviously about my father. I prefer to call him "Father". The reason for this is that a father is one who provides for his child. A dad is one who treats his child with love, respect and kindness. I seldom receive that from him - Therefore, he is my father. Also, I've always felt that I've been in the shadow of my little sister. She's pretty, popular, smart, and athletic. I am none of these. He treats her like a princess and me like Cinderella. I feel like he never wanted me to be born.

This poem originally was published in Poems on Life - Teen Poems

Ode To The Man I Sometimes Call Dad
I lie awake at night
And converse with the darkness.
We discuss many things,
The blackness and I.
We had an interesting conversation
The other night.
I have been wondering lately
What it would be like
To be someone other than me.
If I were more like her,
Would you still Hate me?
If I weren't like me,
Would you realize that you produced two?
Could you know that we are equal,
Although not the same?
Could you be that open-minded?
Doubtful.
Is it possible for you to see me
As the woman I've become,
Rather than the girl
You once knew?
I've overcome many obstacles,
Climbed many mountains,
Achieved many dreams;
But still you refuse to respect me.
You tell me that I'm worthless,
That I won't amount to much.
You call me a loser
I Cannot take it any longer!
I will fight back this time.
But am I Strong enough
To fight that which makes me weak?
No.
I will continue to let you belittle me
And treat me like a fool,
Like I am merely a stepping stone
On your path of destruction.
You tell me to respect you
But how can I respect a man
Who doesn't respect himself?
I can't honor and obey you
Like a true DAD should be treated.
Because in these past seventeen years,
You have never been a "Dad" to me.
You are only my guardian, my provider -
Not my Dad.
You've provided me with the basics,
What I need now is for you to help me;
Love, Laugh, be Free,
Live every moment to the Fullest.
Until you can fulfil that need,
I will let the darkness
Heal my wounded soul,
Because you never learned how.

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  • Kerry
    That was a fantastic poem, congrats! I know exactly how you are feelng, my parents are divorced and ever since my dad has been with this new chick i feel like i mean absolutely nothing to him. She doesn't like me at all and has a daughter who thinks she is the best thing since sliced bread. My dad is always putting me down and telling me that im useless and a good for nothing it really hurts and its sometimes weird to see that im not the only person that has problems with my 'father'. I just want to tell you that you gota keep strong and don't ket people walk over, be yourself and never let life get you down! BE STRONG JESSIE:-)
  • Jessica
    This describes my father perfectly. I'm glad I'm not alone.
  • Hunter
    The day I read this poem I had just got into n argument with my dad. I sent it to him and wrote at the bottom please don't let this sum up our lives. right now i know he hasn't read yet because he's sitting right here, but i'm hopeful that it'll have response and an impact. Thank you for this poem!
  • REBECCA
    WOW, I REALLY LIKE YOUR POEM. I ALSO BELIEVE THAT A FATHER IS ONLY A MAN WHO HELPED MAKE A BABY BUT A DAD IS A MAN WHO LOVES N TAKES CARE OF A CHILD. KEEP ON WRITING
  • diana
    Jessie I know how it feeles I'm 18 and i live with my mom and dad but my dad is a very mean,bitter person and every day of my life for the last 2 years have been a living hell holle for me. :-D
  • Yumiko
    i'll will give this poem the highest vote because it really touched me!
  • Jessica
    This was a wonderful poem. I was suprised how someone could feel the exact same feelings that I am.
  • Nicole
    I loved this. I could really relate. When I read the description it almost brought tears to my eyes. "A huge difference between being a father and a "Dad". I'm 14 currently, 15 in Januaury and I can never once remember my father being my "Dad". Anyways, thanks for sharing with me and millions of other people here. Be strong, always.
  • claudia
    this is a very good poem because it reminds me of my brother in jail for 8 years.
  • Yani
    You Go Girl! I definitely feel every word that is in this poem you have stole my thoughts right from me! You have a beautiful spirit. Yani
  • marianna
    this poem is exactly what i have wanted to say for so long, yet could never express. this poem express those feelings.
  • Kristina
    Jessie, I know how you feel; perhaps sperm donor would be better than father? That's how it is in my case. Good luck with that wounded soul of yours, I'm 17, & it still hasn't healed. K
  • Kortnie
    that poem rocked! i feel the same exact way with my father and all. your poem summed up my feelings so well, when i try to write a poem about that i just cant cuz i get so mad and emotional it turns into a mess of cuss words LOL you are very talented :)
  • DANIKKA
    Wow this is probably the best poem I haveread on here yet. I would never call my father dad. He remains my sperm donor. Sometimes, father. So I can relate. Thank you.
  • Blue
    Nice but a sad poem.
  • Kaccandra
    This poem really touched my heart. I didn't think anyone felt the sameway I do until I read your poem, It's nice to know that I a not alone.
  • aks
    i liked this poem because it has touched my heart, my thoughtsand my life on the whole as a teenager. its really hurting when parents compare and differentiate.
  • Sarah
    Jessie, I absolutely LoVe your poem. Its so powerful and touching. For so long I have felt the same way as you and never got the courage to express my feelings bout it. You have that courage to step it up and really tell it like it is. I appreciate your work so much. It explains my feelings from head to toe. right on the nail. Its an excellent poem and I wish I had enough courage to write about those types of things and just tell them to the public. I do it alone and in my own little notebook where no one can see. You are an amazing poet and I adore your poem. GREAT WORK!
  • Mari
    exctly how I feel.
  • Dayline
    Very nice poem, sad one too. Good luckand Thank You.
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