I am only 16 years old and I feel that I have been through way too much for my age. Some of my decisions in life have affected me forever and I feel that poetry is the only way I can express myself.

Everyone plays the fool at times-unfortunately I learned a very hard lesson at a very young age so here is my story.

This poem originally was published in Sad Poems

Loss of Innocence
When we first met I made you promise
you would never leave,
then I told you of the demons,
and how they made me bleed.

I made you promise crazy things,
but your words were not enough.
I couldn't believe you loved me
I thought to love me was too tough.

When I cry about my past
and say that I'm ashamed
I know I am the only one
who is to be blamed.
Then you crawl in bed beside me
and say that it's ok-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

When I can't sleep through the night,
when I toss and turn in bed,
you wrap your arms around me
and chase the demons from my head.
You say don't talk about the past
you tell me that it's gone,
you say since we're together now
it's time that I move on,
you say that I'm your angel
but if you only knew
the kind of thoughts I think
and what I used to do.
You tell me it doesn't matter
and that you love me anyway-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

They said that's how they liked it
when I dragged my nails across their backs,
but now you hold my hand in yours
and tell me to relax,
you say that this is making love
and this is the better way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.

I never felt a thing
before you touched my heart
and when you touched my body,
I thought I'd fall apart.
When you kiss my lips,
I feel you deep within my soul
then you wrap your arms around me
and say you'll never let me go.

When I tremble at your tenderness
and melt in your arms,
I know you really love me,
and you'll keep me safe from harm
you know I've never loved
or been loved in any kind of way-
so I cry for my loss of innocence
and the things I gave away.
145 Visitor Comments (from the Voting form)
  • Laura
    This poem touched me, simply because of the truth i feel within the words.
  • Ben
    Deep
  • Angel
    this is a truely awesome poem. I really feel like I can connect towards the feeling of losing that innocence and that you can learn to regret it later on- I feel that I chose the right person my first time around and I'll never regret it but there's been other things I've done that this poem has reminded me about, and now I think about what kind of relationship I have with my first after reading about the difference between making love and just sex I'm a guy and it feels wierd sounding this sensitive but I think this poem really made me feel more open, I'm not even sure the word awesome can convey how I feel about it
  • jessica
    wow this poem was amazing! it was real deep and reminded of many i know. i would give this poem a perfect 10
  • Anna
    This is a wonderful poem, it reminds me of myself. it touched me. i too wish i could take back things. but i am unsuccessful in doing so.
  • Sharee
    Applaude, Applaude, That was me and my new husband to the tee. Good Job. I am going to print to read to my husband
  • Brandi
    Oh Honey, I have been going through 100's of poems on line and yours is truly the best by far I have read. I could feel what you are expressing here. You are precious and truly have a gift!
  • Erin
    I thought this poem was truely amazing. I could connect with it on so many different levels.
  • Cara
    i love this poem it makes me remember how that same thing happened to me but now im engaged and madly in love and i know what its like to love and be loved its a great feeling its nothing like the loss of my innocence and i will never forget this poem
  • Nicole
    This poem was sooo great! It touched me on about a million different levels. I really think that it's important for people out there to know that this stuff does happen and it does leave you broken and not too much can actually help mend it. I loved it a lot and I plan to share it with all of my friends. It gives a great messege out there and I'll read it all the time!
  • Flor
    This poem really hit home for me. It was like it was written for me. Like I was the one writing it. Like I was the one that was talking. Somethings are different ofcourse but it's basicly the same story.
  • Shontelle
    awsome poem! absolutly loved it! im at school and should be doing my class work bt who cares this was much more interesting!
  • C.J.
    I loved ur poem and i hope that u keep writing. I still have my innocence and i plan on keeping until the right guy and the right moment comes. i feel srry for u but keep writing.
  • hilarie
    this poem was amazing it truly made me think and it melted my heart, dwelled into my soul. i can really relate to it. its truly amazing when you find someone who makes you feel safe, and who loves you enough to make it posssible that you dont suffer as much from your past. I LOVED IT! keep writing, and try to post more stuff!
  • nathan
    i loved it something says you have alot of changing going on and it sounds like a poem someone older would write
  • missy
    It was a great poem, it matched me alot, i loved it. i would love to read more of your work
  • jazmyn
    i too feel i grew up too fast. been with too many men, know things i shouldnt.
  • lanna
    your poem was just so real to me i am actually speechless its so hard to find love not just the word but true meaningful love that turns you inside out. Your poem is just beautiful and inspiring I am at a loss of words so please forgive me for not saying more.
  • Shelby
    I've been through alot also, this really touched me deeply.
  • neomi
    i do like it and it was good to me so keep up the good job and keep doing you thing jave a nice day
  • cassidy
    that poem was really good i enjoyed it alot. it takes a good person to addmit all that stuff.
  • catrina
    i have been through the similar pain that you have and this poem made me cry. i too write poetry and this is one of the best that i've ever read. beautiful, thank you
  • Carolyn
    Your poem touched a place in my heart because I know that I've expericed many losses of innocence. My innocence was stolen from me when I was a little girl and I still have emotional scares at 20. I am so sorry for your loss and I just wanted to let you know that there is someone out there who can relate.
  • Chrissy
    This poem was very good and brought tears to my eyes.
  • Lightning
    IT WAS AMAZING CAPTURED MY FEELINGS EXACTLY. I LOVED IT. the author is a strong person. i admire her
  • Chris
    omg. i can relate 2 this poem and yes i express myself thru poetry also. it made me cry i've been thru hell and back and at the age of 13 i had my daughter and this poem reminds me of that
  • Brock
    thanks for writing this poem. its helped me alot with this project im doing in english. its a beautiful poem
  • Schitz
    Wow! this has to be the best poem on this page. it scares me though because I have written many poems similar to this from past experiences. I hope I see more work from Loved and Lost
  • Neomi
    I can relate to what you write i'v been ther and I know that pain and happiness. I LOVE this pome it rocks!
  • Leigh
    Your poem is awesome. I'm eighteen, amd while I haven't exactly been in your position, I have been in a similar one. I can only pray that things turn out as well for you as they did for me. Your writing is amazing- and inspiring. Don't stop now.
  • Michaela
    Wow, all i have to say is it's beautiful.
  • clare
    what can i say this peom is beautiful and so moving and emotional i know excactly what its like to have fear like that and to feel numb so my tears were for u this time thank you for that peom.
  • Carolyn
    All I have to say is that I am also 16 and poetry is my life. It is also what helps me release all that I've been through because I've also been through way too much to be 16. Girl, I feel your poem, and I know just how you feel.
  • Chloe
    mental and physial Abuse is something in my every day life and ive tried to get out of this world more times than i can count but it all amounts to nothing in the end. THANKGOD FOR MY BESTFRIEND LOUISE OR ID BE DEAD. JUST REMEMBER YOUR NOT ALONE.
  • Raeann
    omg, your poem is wonderful, i love it! your a great poet. keep writting, your awesome!
  • sarah
    As the author o this poem I would like to thank all who voted for me and your comments truly inspiredme to continue posting my work here.
  • diana
    I know exactly what you are taking about. Thank you for puting into words what i could not.
  • Carly
    Your poem was completely different from every other poem i've ever come in contact with. I cannot say that i have ever been in your position, but i can honestly say that reading your work can make another think. i enjoyed your poem with every word and i think on a whole you are a very talented writer. i wish you much luck in your future. thank you for posting your poem.
  • Mandi
    what a brilliant poem, i found it so moving.
  • Hope
    I just wanted to tell you that what you went through, is the same thing I'm going through right now. I'm living in regret, and for me to have to live in regret makes me want to live less and less each day. To know there is someone out there that knows how I feel, relieves me.
  • diana
    i loved your poem. i could relate to it right away. i felt like you were writing everything i was going through.
  • darcy
    awwww this is such a sad poem. but i really like it .
  • Stacie
    I am so sorry that you have had to go through so much at such a young age. I, too, as many others have gone through alot. I admire your courage and your strength. Just remember, we learn from our mistakes, we don't dwell on them. You are a bright girl and be proud of who you are.
  • Kelly
    This poem gave me chills.
  • angie
    THIS IS A GREAT POEM I JUST SENT IT TO ONE OF MY BESTFRIENDS AND SHE WILL LOVE IT. THIS POEM KINDA MAKES ME THINK OF ALL THE STUPID THINGS I HAVE DONE IN LIFE I LIKE IT A LOT! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK:)
  • alone
    I know EXACTLY what you mean, I've been through the same thing, I lost something special to someone I thought cared, but no he didn't, then I found another, and he said he loved me to, I've been through too much pain, and torture at my age
  • Sara
    This poem was really good and you did a great job of expressing yourself!
  • Kate
    This was one of the best poems I've ever read in my life. I think poems like this help people by letting them see that there is pain in life, but it will still go on
  • Melissa
    I am only 13, and I agree, I have been through to much for my age. Your poem is amazeing and I also write poems to exspress myself. You are an amazeing person to have so much strength, although I don't know you I can tell. I hope life for you becomes easier.
  • martina
    This peam touch a big part of me.I read alote of peoms and this is the strongts peam yet I have read!
  • Brit
    This poem is amazing. It brings back painful memories from my own life. Not knowing what love is, just doing what you think they want is how I led my life. Sounds like you did too. You poem has reminded me that I'm not the only one who went through that.
  • Megan
    I really liked this poem. Especially since it came from a yonger poet. Many people think that just because your younger you dont know things about life, but in just 16 years of living you learn a ton of life lessons.
  • Trint
    i've read alot of poems, and i'd have to say this is the best one
  • Dawn
    THIS IS AWESOME
  • Unkown
    This poem was very touvhing and I am grateful for your courage and the way you expressed yourself. I myself was too in the same boat when I was 14 and I thought the world was over but know that isn't the case at all. God heals and forgives and the past is the past. Although you won't forget it you don't have to relive it everyday. Forgiveness is the key point! Keep up the excellent work!
  • jaimie
    This poem really touched a nerve. After reading quite a few of them, this one got to me. The reason being, that each of us can look inside ourselves, and find regrets. but untill something or someone comes along do we really find it to be a regret.
  • Jessie
    I really related to this poem...I am also only sixteen and i feel that i have been through way to much for my age. I just want to say thanks for letting me know that i am not the only one out there who feels that way!!!
  • Michael
    I can see that many of people have read your poem. I am struggling with so much and it is so hard! I just turned 18 and I still feel like a confused 13 year age stuck in time. Love and relationships."better to have been loved then never loved at all" What does that mean anyway.Your poem has helped me think and hopefully I will make the right decision! Thanks God Bless
  • A.S
    It's one of the beautiful poems I've come across recently. It says a lot about one's feelings and makes you part of it. I almost cried!
  • Erin
    This poem is so beautiful and I can really relate, thanks so much for writing it!
  • Becca
    wow. the best poem i've read. ever.
  • samantha
    This is a really good poem. I loved it and i know everyone else that reads it will love it too.
  • Teegs
    What can be said, you said it all. Nobody deserves to go through what you have but the fact you have written it down shows that you are a strong person with a lot of love left to give. Good Luck
  • James
    I really can't believe I've come across this. I just started reading poems from this website because I have been feeling very insecure and hurt. I have been torturing myself because I can't live with my true love's past. Yet, I give her all of my heart and soul because I love her like I've never loved before. She also happens to be my first. All along I have felt like I am the one hurting because she has a "past" and I don't. I can't stand the visions. I always ask questions and details and it just hurts me more. Now I get why she cries with me when I can't handle it. She hurts too. Thank you Loved and Lost. And I'm so very happy that you found that man who treats you like the beautiful woman that you are and should be treated.
  • Janet
    Whoa...
  • jessica
    that was so realistic i really liked it!!
  • Jena
    I love your poem, it is excalty how i feel about my life right now , and im sure alot of other people feel the same way,Good Job!
  • Anethea
    I have this same feeling. This poem is great I love it
  • Lexie
    Be encouraged. We all make mistakes but God forgives. To go on, you have to learn to forgive yourself though. Ask for Mercy and Grace and it shall be granted. Accept the gift you have been given in the love you have.
  • Jules
    How true.
  • Julie
    I am a 26 year old mother of 2 and I have to tell that this poem touched my heart. It is sad in a way that someone so young has had to experience the feelings that are expressed in this poem.I have the utmost respect for the strength and courage this young lady has shown in her poetry!
  • Jody
    This poem is such a great work of art, and you need to keep up the good work for you will be famous one day
  • theresa
    This is an incredable,well discriptive poem that I thouroughly enjoyed reading and in so many ways can relate to,for being 16 myself. To the author,keep writing it is the best way to express and release bottled up pain,awesome job.
  • Jenna
    This poem means alot to lots of people who feel this exact way. This poem must have been writen by a very talented person. To get the rhymns and such to a perfect kind of beat must come as a talent to this person. Cause the person who wrote this poem did it wonderfully . And the poem had meaning and thats whats importan!
  • Lizzie
    This poem was very touching and the use of words is very good. I love the way the author use the repeating of the title to stir up emotions. It's very beautiful.
  • Michelle
    I just wanted to say that I really love your poem. It's the best poem i've ever read and theres ALOT of things in my past that will affect me forever to and I just want to forget about it, but it's hard.
  • davis
    great poem
  • Christine
    I just admire your poem... it really rhymes and it's....... really soooooo sweet, touching and oso sooooo romantic...!~ i used to have a bf too!!! But we borke up...
  • Ryan
    it was very great it just seems so much like it is for some people i know
  • ian
    this was amazing im the same age please keep writing i know how you feel
  • Sara
    I feel your pain.
  • Gizelle
    very touching...
  • tracy
    That was a really good poem. I must have read it 3 times in a row.
  • mylan
    great! one of the best i've read today.
  • Ty
    I HAVE READ YOUR POEM SO MANY TIMES. FOR ALONG TIME I THOUGHT THAT I WAS THE ONLY ONE. IT FEELS GOOD TO GET ALL OF YOUR REGRETS OUT. I WROTE MY PAST AWAY ALSO. THE SUN ALWAYS SHINES AFTER THE RAIN. ALWAYS REMEMBER TO KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND NEVER LOOK BACK, LOOKING BACK DOES NOT HELP THE FIGHT TO GET OVER. EVERYDAY GETS BETTER. BEST OF LUCK.
  • Kevin
    This is one of the best poems that I have ever read. It is sad and touches my heart. I am 13 and am a boy and this poem almost made me cry.
  • heather
    Wow - the value or the pain of experience.
  • Mikey
    When I read this part and make me feel the same ways as your feeling of been close with someone who love you and me. It very rarely to have those people who willing to last forever because too many kids want to curious about other but they might realize that they could hurt someone's heart...
  • Belinda
    This is an awsome poem.
  • Steve
    Without a doubt, best poem I've read in years, if ever. The author really knows how to express her feelings in poems. This is a stunning masterpiece..
  • Nicole
    I just wanted to say that your poem touched something in me. Hold on to that love.... it heals many wounds.
  • ray
    The poem was very touching and i could feel moments as if re experiencing my own. The poem was excellently written, and i congratulate the writer of it.
  • Lorraine
    That poem really hit home. I am now 23 been married and divored but think i have find my soul mate. I am glad she did to. We all have made mistakes some worse than others, it is great to know that there is someone else out there who made some of the same mistakes and can so beautifully write them thank you.
  • SHONAI
    I LOVED THIS POEM .THOUGH I COULD NOT SHARE HER GRIEF AND RELIFE I FELT IT IN MY HEART AND MIND
  • Jill
    I am 34 yrs old.this poem is my life. It is the pain that has followed me through the years of the same mistake over and over. Loved & lost.. you are so blessed to feel the love at 16..to beable to stop the pain now rather than later.
  • ERC
    ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC! NEARLY as good as my poems...
  • amanda
    It was marvelous!
  • Michela
    This poem is incredibly well written. I feel the poet's pain...
  • Brittany
    wow. that's all i can say
  • carol-lyne
    it was reallu good,it made me think alot ...
  • suedapupa
    that poem was truly moving, it breaks my heart to know all you've been through and yet you still have the stregnth to move on
  • Anonymous
    This poem honestly touched my heart, it reminds me exactly of my own life. Sometimes it is comforting to know that your not alone and that there are people out there that feel what you feel inside, thanks.
  • Nicole
    I thank you for making me cry, and remembering the past! And now looking towards a future with more promise. You truly are a wonderful soul, never stop
  • Matina
    I'm not really into poems and i'm on this sight for an assisgnment but this poem was great. I have never read a poem like it.
  • Taniesha
    Your poem was wonderful and I hope you feel better. Don't let the things in the past get on your way. The person you are with loves you and remember that.
  • piper
    awsome!you really feel the poem
  • Becca
    this is really sad!! it just shows me how lucky i am to have had a good life!!!
  • Lindsay
    I think this is a very deep and meaningful poem and....well...i really dont know what to say about it- it speaks for itself
  • Ronnie
    This poem was way way to AWSOME I loved it and I realated to this peom and I commend this aurthor. good job.
  • Laurie
    your poem really touched my heart, and i am assuming because it is a top 10 favourite, it has touched the life of many others. I really thank you for your willingness to express your feelings and your life with total strangers. i wish you all the luck in the fture, and remember, you are not alone.
  • Mimic
    I myself loved this poem i do have some work that sounds like this i wll have to post my wrok at a later time.
  • Sarah
    This is a wonderful poem that brought back so many memories and it was like you were writing this in my minds set. It is truely a wonderful poem.
  • Genevieve
    It was inspiring to move on in lifee. She did a good job, I enjoyed it.
  • Sherry
    This poem is very touching and it makes you think. A 16 year old girl.
  • driven
    wow. thats all i can say.
  • Trisha
    I thought that this poem was wonderful!. I could tell that it was truly written from the heart. Pain does that to you. I think people write their best when speaking form the heart. I felt sorry and happy for that poor girl.
  • Timea
    The greatest poem that I have read in a long time.
  • parveen
    truely profound statement
  • Anna
    i thought that this poem was just great, showing raw emotion from a remorseful soul....mad propz fer the poet because this person has a real heart and spirit who regrets a common mistake....
  • Tickelish
    This poem really made me think about things that I should of felt a long time ago......so thank U, for helping me to realize that.
  • Jennifer
    This poem was awsome.I've been through a lot of hard times and this poem makes me smile a lot.
  • Maegan
    I LOVED YOUR POEM, AND COULD RELATE TO IT SO MUCH THAT I AM DOING A REPORT FOR A POETRY CLASS ON IT.
  • Justin
    I think this is one of the best and deepest poems I have ever read in my life.
  • Jenn
    I think that this poem is the most true pome that i have ever read. The writer should have that guy after all that happned. I love this poem It's my new favorite one.
  • Joe
    I just want to say that you are not alone. I too have been through so much and i am only 17. But i didn't just lose something i gained something as well... :o(
  • Melissa
    I give this young girl a lot of credit for being so strong. And Good Luck in the future.
  • Jenn
    I feel your pain. I feel your love. I was just like you once. And then someone loved me. And now i am loved. And forever will be. You're a very magical writer and i can feel your words, your thoughts. This si wonderful poem. One that every person should read and think about.
  • Benson
    wow ... i dont know where to begin..your poem had so much meaning and so much emotion, it made me shake inside.. thanks for the experience of your poetry. it means so much to me
  • Sarah
    This poem touched me because it reminds me so much of my sister.
  • Brian
    If you had a heart, you would agree that this poem not only speaks out, but it also cries out and pleads to the fundamentals of one's soul. A beautiful poem with a touch from the heart. Bravo!
  • Melissa
    Wonderful! I hope this poem wins! It made me cry!
  • Sara
    Really hit home...a very good expression of emotions
  • michael
    this has to be the best one i've read in years........period
  • LAURA
    THIS POEM REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART
  • amie
    i like that poem a lot and i think yoou should continue to write peomd of that sort
  • Brandie
    this is a really good poem. i feel this poem within me. i actually feel what she is saying because i have been there.
  • Michelle
    I cannot believe how beautiful this poems is... I was just surfing around some of the poems in here when I found this... it just got me thinking and boy, I know I'll be thinking about this later at night.
  • Faye
    This is a very touching poem written with the help of deep painful feelings!
  • dee
    i can only assume what you meant to say, between the lines....when i was 16 i was there too.....not the same boat, but the same journey......keep the poetry flowing...give the rest of us your grief on paper so that we may help you share it...and maybe even heal it.....pen and paper always by your side....(or computer, obviously)...enjoyed it very much...thanks for the words and the wisdom.....and the truth behind the poet, with regards
  • Jason
    I just want to say that this persons sadness brought alot of happiness to my good friend and I thank you so much
  • amber
    Your poem was great.ive been through alot too.and i express my pain in a poem it helps me feel better.well i hope you have a good life
  • andrea
    dear loved and lost i just turned 18 and i express myself in poetry also and if i were to write a poem about my life i couldnt put any better than what you just did. you touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes i moved out on my own when i was 15 years old and i have had it rough untill about 3 months ago
  • Dopey
    This is a real good poem. I loved reading it and I related to it. I think this poem is so wonderful and beautiful because the author wrote it from the heart. And that's where the most beautiful poetry comes from.
  • Paris
    i am also 16 yr old female wow how yur words touched my heart wish i could find a love like u WISH ALL THE BEST BABY
  • Mandy
    You are a very good poet for only being 16. I am 18 and I can actually say that you inspire me.

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