I am only 16 years old and I feel that I have been through way too much for my age. Some of my decisions in life have affected me forever and I feel that poetry is the only way I can express myself.
Everyone plays the fool at times-unfortunately I learned a very hard lesson at a very young age so here is my story.
This poem originally was published in Sad Poems
Loss of Innocence
When we first met I made you promise you would never leave, then I told you of the demons, and how they made me bleed. I made you promise crazy things, but your words were not enough. I couldn't believe you loved me I thought to love me was too tough. When I cry about my past and say that I'm ashamed I know I am the only one who is to be blamed. Then you crawl in bed beside me and say that it's ok- so I cry for my loss of innocence and the things I gave away. When I can't sleep through the night, when I toss and turn in bed, you wrap your arms around me and chase the demons from my head. You say don't talk about the past you tell me that it's gone, you say since we're together now it's time that I move on, you say that I'm your angel but if you only knew the kind of thoughts I think and what I used to do. You tell me it doesn't matter and that you love me anyway- so I cry for my loss of innocence and the things I gave away. They said that's how they liked it when I dragged my nails across their backs, but now you hold my hand in yours and tell me to relax, you say that this is making love and this is the better way- so I cry for my loss of innocence and the things I gave away. I never felt a thing before you touched my heart and when you touched my body, I thought I'd fall apart. When you kiss my lips, I feel you deep within my soul then you wrap your arms around me and say you'll never let me go. When I tremble at your tenderness and melt in your arms, I know you really love me, and you'll keep me safe from harm you know I've never loved or been loved in any kind of way- so I cry for my loss of innocence and the things I gave away. |
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Loved and Lost
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145 Visitor Comments (from the Voting form)
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LauraThis poem touched me, simply because of the truth i feel within the words.
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BenDeep
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Angelthis is a truely awesome poem. I really feel like I can connect towards the feeling of losing that innocence and that you can learn to regret it later on- I feel that I chose the right person my first time around and I'll never regret it but there's been other things I've done that this poem has reminded me about, and now I think about what kind of relationship I have with my first after reading about the difference between making love and just sex I'm a guy and it feels wierd sounding this sensitive but I think this poem really made me feel more open, I'm not even sure the word awesome can convey how I feel about it
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jessicawow this poem was amazing! it was real deep and reminded of many i know. i would give this poem a perfect 10
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AnnaThis is a wonderful poem, it reminds me of myself. it touched me. i too wish i could take back things. but i am unsuccessful in doing so.
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ShareeApplaude, Applaude, That was me and my new husband to the tee. Good Job. I am going to print to read to my husband
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BrandiOh Honey, I have been going through 100's of poems on line and yours is truly the best by far I have read. I could feel what you are expressing here. You are precious and truly have a gift!
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ErinI thought this poem was truely amazing. I could connect with it on so many different levels.
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Carai love this poem it makes me remember how that same thing happened to me but now im engaged and madly in love and i know what its like to love and be loved its a great feeling its nothing like the loss of my innocence and i will never forget this poem
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NicoleThis poem was sooo great! It touched me on about a million different levels. I really think that it's important for people out there to know that this stuff does happen and it does leave you broken and not too much can actually help mend it. I loved it a lot and I plan to share it with all of my friends. It gives a great messege out there and I'll read it all the time!
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FlorThis poem really hit home for me. It was like it was written for me. Like I was the one writing it. Like I was the one that was talking. Somethings are different ofcourse but it's basicly the same story.
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Shontelleawsome poem! absolutly loved it! im at school and should be doing my class work bt who cares this was much more interesting!
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C.J.I loved ur poem and i hope that u keep writing. I still have my innocence and i plan on keeping until the right guy and the right moment comes. i feel srry for u but keep writing.
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hilariethis poem was amazing it truly made me think and it melted my heart, dwelled into my soul. i can really relate to it. its truly amazing when you find someone who makes you feel safe, and who loves you enough to make it posssible that you dont suffer as much from your past. I LOVED IT! keep writing, and try to post more stuff!
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nathani loved it something says you have alot of changing going on and it sounds like a poem someone older would write
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missyIt was a great poem, it matched me alot, i loved it. i would love to read more of your work
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jazmyni too feel i grew up too fast. been with too many men, know things i shouldnt.
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lannayour poem was just so real to me i am actually speechless its so hard to find love not just the word but true meaningful love that turns you inside out. Your poem is just beautiful and inspiring I am at a loss of words so please forgive me for not saying more.
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ShelbyI've been through alot also, this really touched me deeply.
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neomii do like it and it was good to me so keep up the good job and keep doing you thing jave a nice day
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cassidythat poem was really good i enjoyed it alot. it takes a good person to addmit all that stuff.
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catrinai have been through the similar pain that you have and this poem made me cry. i too write poetry and this is one of the best that i've ever read. beautiful, thank you
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CarolynYour poem touched a place in my heart because I know that I've expericed many losses of innocence. My innocence was stolen from me when I was a little girl and I still have emotional scares at 20. I am so sorry for your loss and I just wanted to let you know that there is someone out there who can relate.
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ChrissyThis poem was very good and brought tears to my eyes.
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LightningIT WAS AMAZING CAPTURED MY FEELINGS EXACTLY. I LOVED IT. the author is a strong person. i admire her
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Chrisomg. i can relate 2 this poem and yes i express myself thru poetry also. it made me cry i've been thru hell and back and at the age of 13 i had my daughter and this poem reminds me of that
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Brockthanks for writing this poem. its helped me alot with this project im doing in english. its a beautiful poem
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SchitzWow! this has to be the best poem on this page. it scares me though because I have written many poems similar to this from past experiences. I hope I see more work from Loved and Lost
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NeomiI can relate to what you write i'v been ther and I know that pain and happiness. I LOVE this pome it rocks!
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LeighYour poem is awesome. I'm eighteen, amd while I haven't exactly been in your position, I have been in a similar one. I can only pray that things turn out as well for you as they did for me. Your writing is amazing- and inspiring. Don't stop now.
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MichaelaWow, all i have to say is it's beautiful.
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clarewhat can i say this peom is beautiful and so moving and emotional i know excactly what its like to have fear like that and to feel numb so my tears were for u this time thank you for that peom.
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CarolynAll I have to say is that I am also 16 and poetry is my life. It is also what helps me release all that I've been through because I've also been through way too much to be 16. Girl, I feel your poem, and I know just how you feel.
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Chloemental and physial Abuse is something in my every day life and ive tried to get out of this world more times than i can count but it all amounts to nothing in the end. THANKGOD FOR MY BESTFRIEND LOUISE OR ID BE DEAD. JUST REMEMBER YOUR NOT ALONE.
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Raeannomg, your poem is wonderful, i love it! your a great poet. keep writting, your awesome!
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sarahAs the author o this poem I would like to thank all who voted for me and your comments truly inspiredme to continue posting my work here.
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dianaI know exactly what you are taking about. Thank you for puting into words what i could not.
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CarlyYour poem was completely different from every other poem i've ever come in contact with. I cannot say that i have ever been in your position, but i can honestly say that reading your work can make another think. i enjoyed your poem with every word and i think on a whole you are a very talented writer. i wish you much luck in your future. thank you for posting your poem.
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Mandiwhat a brilliant poem, i found it so moving.
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HopeI just wanted to tell you that what you went through, is the same thing I'm going through right now. I'm living in regret, and for me to have to live in regret makes me want to live less and less each day. To know there is someone out there that knows how I feel, relieves me.
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dianai loved your poem. i could relate to it right away. i felt like you were writing everything i was going through.
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darcyawwww this is such a sad poem. but i really like it .
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StacieI am so sorry that you have had to go through so much at such a young age. I, too, as many others have gone through alot. I admire your courage and your strength. Just remember, we learn from our mistakes, we don't dwell on them. You are a bright girl and be proud of who you are.
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KellyThis poem gave me chills.
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angieTHIS IS A GREAT POEM I JUST SENT IT TO ONE OF MY BESTFRIENDS AND SHE WILL LOVE IT. THIS POEM KINDA MAKES ME THINK OF ALL THE STUPID THINGS I HAVE DONE IN LIFE I LIKE IT A LOT! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK:)
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aloneI know EXACTLY what you mean, I've been through the same thing, I lost something special to someone I thought cared, but no he didn't, then I found another, and he said he loved me to, I've been through too much pain, and torture at my age
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SaraThis poem was really good and you did a great job of expressing yourself!
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KateThis was one of the best poems I've ever read in my life. I think poems like this help people by letting them see that there is pain in life, but it will still go on
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MelissaI am only 13, and I agree, I have been through to much for my age. Your poem is amazeing and I also write poems to exspress myself. You are an amazeing person to have so much strength, although I don't know you I can tell. I hope life for you becomes easier.
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martinaThis peam touch a big part of me.I read alote of peoms and this is the strongts peam yet I have read!
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BritThis poem is amazing. It brings back painful memories from my own life. Not knowing what love is, just doing what you think they want is how I led my life. Sounds like you did too. You poem has reminded me that I'm not the only one who went through that.
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MeganI really liked this poem. Especially since it came from a yonger poet. Many people think that just because your younger you dont know things about life, but in just 16 years of living you learn a ton of life lessons.
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Trinti've read alot of poems, and i'd have to say this is the best one
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DawnTHIS IS AWESOME
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UnkownThis poem was very touvhing and I am grateful for your courage and the way you expressed yourself. I myself was too in the same boat when I was 14 and I thought the world was over but know that isn't the case at all. God heals and forgives and the past is the past. Although you won't forget it you don't have to relive it everyday. Forgiveness is the key point! Keep up the excellent work!
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jaimieThis poem really touched a nerve. After reading quite a few of them, this one got to me. The reason being, that each of us can look inside ourselves, and find regrets. but untill something or someone comes along do we really find it to be a regret.
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JessieI really related to this poem...I am also only sixteen and i feel that i have been through way to much for my age. I just want to say thanks for letting me know that i am not the only one out there who feels that way!!!
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MichaelI can see that many of people have read your poem. I am struggling with so much and it is so hard! I just turned 18 and I still feel like a confused 13 year age stuck in time. Love and relationships."better to have been loved then never loved at all" What does that mean anyway.Your poem has helped me think and hopefully I will make the right decision! Thanks God Bless
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A.SIt's one of the beautiful poems I've come across recently. It says a lot about one's feelings and makes you part of it. I almost cried!
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ErinThis poem is so beautiful and I can really relate, thanks so much for writing it!
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Beccawow. the best poem i've read. ever.
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samanthaThis is a really good poem. I loved it and i know everyone else that reads it will love it too.
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TeegsWhat can be said, you said it all. Nobody deserves to go through what you have but the fact you have written it down shows that you are a strong person with a lot of love left to give. Good Luck
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JamesI really can't believe I've come across this. I just started reading poems from this website because I have been feeling very insecure and hurt. I have been torturing myself because I can't live with my true love's past. Yet, I give her all of my heart and soul because I love her like I've never loved before. She also happens to be my first. All along I have felt like I am the one hurting because she has a "past" and I don't. I can't stand the visions. I always ask questions and details and it just hurts me more. Now I get why she cries with me when I can't handle it. She hurts too. Thank you Loved and Lost. And I'm so very happy that you found that man who treats you like the beautiful woman that you are and should be treated.
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JanetWhoa...
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jessicathat was so realistic i really liked it!!
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JenaI love your poem, it is excalty how i feel about my life right now , and im sure alot of other people feel the same way,Good Job!
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AnetheaI have this same feeling. This poem is great I love it
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LexieBe encouraged. We all make mistakes but God forgives. To go on, you have to learn to forgive yourself though. Ask for Mercy and Grace and it shall be granted. Accept the gift you have been given in the love you have.
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JulesHow true.
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JulieI am a 26 year old mother of 2 and I have to tell that this poem touched my heart. It is sad in a way that someone so young has had to experience the feelings that are expressed in this poem.I have the utmost respect for the strength and courage this young lady has shown in her poetry!
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JodyThis poem is such a great work of art, and you need to keep up the good work for you will be famous one day
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theresaThis is an incredable,well discriptive poem that I thouroughly enjoyed reading and in so many ways can relate to,for being 16 myself. To the author,keep writing it is the best way to express and release bottled up pain,awesome job.
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JennaThis poem means alot to lots of people who feel this exact way. This poem must have been writen by a very talented person. To get the rhymns and such to a perfect kind of beat must come as a talent to this person. Cause the person who wrote this poem did it wonderfully . And the poem had meaning and thats whats importan!
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LizzieThis poem was very touching and the use of words is very good. I love the way the author use the repeating of the title to stir up emotions. It's very beautiful.
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MichelleI just wanted to say that I really love your poem. It's the best poem i've ever read and theres ALOT of things in my past that will affect me forever to and I just want to forget about it, but it's hard.
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davisgreat poem
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ChristineI just admire your poem... it really rhymes and it's....... really soooooo sweet, touching and oso sooooo romantic...!~ i used to have a bf too!!! But we borke up...
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Ryanit was very great it just seems so much like it is for some people i know
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ianthis was amazing im the same age please keep writing i know how you feel
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SaraI feel your pain.
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Gizellevery touching...
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tracyThat was a really good poem. I must have read it 3 times in a row.
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mylangreat! one of the best i've read today.
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TyI HAVE READ YOUR POEM SO MANY TIMES. FOR ALONG TIME I THOUGHT THAT I WAS THE ONLY ONE. IT FEELS GOOD TO GET ALL OF YOUR REGRETS OUT. I WROTE MY PAST AWAY ALSO. THE SUN ALWAYS SHINES AFTER THE RAIN. ALWAYS REMEMBER TO KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND NEVER LOOK BACK, LOOKING BACK DOES NOT HELP THE FIGHT TO GET OVER. EVERYDAY GETS BETTER. BEST OF LUCK.
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KevinThis is one of the best poems that I have ever read. It is sad and touches my heart. I am 13 and am a boy and this poem almost made me cry.
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heatherWow - the value or the pain of experience.
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MikeyWhen I read this part and make me feel the same ways as your feeling of been close with someone who love you and me. It very rarely to have those people who willing to last forever because too many kids want to curious about other but they might realize that they could hurt someone's heart...
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BelindaThis is an awsome poem.
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SteveWithout a doubt, best poem I've read in years, if ever. The author really knows how to express her feelings in poems. This is a stunning masterpiece..
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NicoleI just wanted to say that your poem touched something in me. Hold on to that love.... it heals many wounds.
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rayThe poem was very touching and i could feel moments as if re experiencing my own. The poem was excellently written, and i congratulate the writer of it.
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LorraineThat poem really hit home. I am now 23 been married and divored but think i have find my soul mate. I am glad she did to. We all have made mistakes some worse than others, it is great to know that there is someone else out there who made some of the same mistakes and can so beautifully write them thank you.
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SHONAII LOVED THIS POEM .THOUGH I COULD NOT SHARE HER GRIEF AND RELIFE I FELT IT IN MY HEART AND MIND
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JillI am 34 yrs old.this poem is my life. It is the pain that has followed me through the years of the same mistake over and over. Loved & lost.. you are so blessed to feel the love at 16..to beable to stop the pain now rather than later.
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ERCABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC! NEARLY as good as my poems...
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amandaIt was marvelous!
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MichelaThis poem is incredibly well written. I feel the poet's pain...
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Brittanywow. that's all i can say
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carol-lyneit was reallu good,it made me think alot ...
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suedapupathat poem was truly moving, it breaks my heart to know all you've been through and yet you still have the stregnth to move on
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AnonymousThis poem honestly touched my heart, it reminds me exactly of my own life. Sometimes it is comforting to know that your not alone and that there are people out there that feel what you feel inside, thanks.
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NicoleI thank you for making me cry, and remembering the past! And now looking towards a future with more promise. You truly are a wonderful soul, never stop
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MatinaI'm not really into poems and i'm on this sight for an assisgnment but this poem was great. I have never read a poem like it.
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TanieshaYour poem was wonderful and I hope you feel better. Don't let the things in the past get on your way. The person you are with loves you and remember that.
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piperawsome!you really feel the poem
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Beccathis is really sad!! it just shows me how lucky i am to have had a good life!!!
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LindsayI think this is a very deep and meaningful poem and....well...i really dont know what to say about it- it speaks for itself
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RonnieThis poem was way way to AWSOME I loved it and I realated to this peom and I commend this aurthor. good job.
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Laurieyour poem really touched my heart, and i am assuming because it is a top 10 favourite, it has touched the life of many others. I really thank you for your willingness to express your feelings and your life with total strangers. i wish you all the luck in the fture, and remember, you are not alone.
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MimicI myself loved this poem i do have some work that sounds like this i wll have to post my wrok at a later time.
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SarahThis is a wonderful poem that brought back so many memories and it was like you were writing this in my minds set. It is truely a wonderful poem.
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GenevieveIt was inspiring to move on in lifee. She did a good job, I enjoyed it.
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SherryThis poem is very touching and it makes you think. A 16 year old girl.
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drivenwow. thats all i can say.
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TrishaI thought that this poem was wonderful!. I could tell that it was truly written from the heart. Pain does that to you. I think people write their best when speaking form the heart. I felt sorry and happy for that poor girl.
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TimeaThe greatest poem that I have read in a long time.
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parveentruely profound statement
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Annai thought that this poem was just great, showing raw emotion from a remorseful soul....mad propz fer the poet because this person has a real heart and spirit who regrets a common mistake....
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TickelishThis poem really made me think about things that I should of felt a long time ago......so thank U, for helping me to realize that.
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JenniferThis poem was awsome.I've been through a lot of hard times and this poem makes me smile a lot.
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MaeganI LOVED YOUR POEM, AND COULD RELATE TO IT SO MUCH THAT I AM DOING A REPORT FOR A POETRY CLASS ON IT.
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JustinI think this is one of the best and deepest poems I have ever read in my life.
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JennI think that this poem is the most true pome that i have ever read. The writer should have that guy after all that happned. I love this poem It's my new favorite one.
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JoeI just want to say that you are not alone. I too have been through so much and i am only 17. But i didn't just lose something i gained something as well... :o(
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MelissaI give this young girl a lot of credit for being so strong. And Good Luck in the future.
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JennI feel your pain. I feel your love. I was just like you once. And then someone loved me. And now i am loved. And forever will be. You're a very magical writer and i can feel your words, your thoughts. This si wonderful poem. One that every person should read and think about.
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Bensonwow ... i dont know where to begin..your poem had so much meaning and so much emotion, it made me shake inside.. thanks for the experience of your poetry. it means so much to me
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SarahThis poem touched me because it reminds me so much of my sister.
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BrianIf you had a heart, you would agree that this poem not only speaks out, but it also cries out and pleads to the fundamentals of one's soul. A beautiful poem with a touch from the heart. Bravo!
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MelissaWonderful! I hope this poem wins! It made me cry!
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SaraReally hit home...a very good expression of emotions
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michaelthis has to be the best one i've read in years........period
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LAURATHIS POEM REALLY TOUCHED MY HEART
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amiei like that poem a lot and i think yoou should continue to write peomd of that sort
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Brandiethis is a really good poem. i feel this poem within me. i actually feel what she is saying because i have been there.
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MichelleI cannot believe how beautiful this poems is... I was just surfing around some of the poems in here when I found this... it just got me thinking and boy, I know I'll be thinking about this later at night.
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FayeThis is a very touching poem written with the help of deep painful feelings!
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deei can only assume what you meant to say, between the lines....when i was 16 i was there too.....not the same boat, but the same journey......keep the poetry flowing...give the rest of us your grief on paper so that we may help you share it...and maybe even heal it.....pen and paper always by your side....(or computer, obviously)...enjoyed it very much...thanks for the words and the wisdom.....and the truth behind the poet, with regards
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JasonI just want to say that this persons sadness brought alot of happiness to my good friend and I thank you so much
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amberYour poem was great.ive been through alot too.and i express my pain in a poem it helps me feel better.well i hope you have a good life
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andreadear loved and lost i just turned 18 and i express myself in poetry also and if i were to write a poem about my life i couldnt put any better than what you just did. you touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes i moved out on my own when i was 15 years old and i have had it rough untill about 3 months ago
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DopeyThis is a real good poem. I loved reading it and I related to it. I think this poem is so wonderful and beautiful because the author wrote it from the heart. And that's where the most beautiful poetry comes from.
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Parisi am also 16 yr old female wow how yur words touched my heart wish i could find a love like u WISH ALL THE BEST BABY
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MandyYou are a very good poet for only being 16. I am 18 and I can actually say that you inspire me.
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