This poem is about how I feel and what I do about it. It's not a suggestion but I'm open to them.
This poem originally was published in Sad Poems - Depression and Suicide Poems
Wave Of Mutilation
I press my forehead on the window And through it watch children Playing on the lawn Desolation pulses through my veins And my futile fingers reach out for guidance I savor the blade, sinking deeper than blue I can taste tranquility for a wavering instance The anger flows down my arm as the bitter black blood Burns off my fingertips Death swims before me in hazy illusion Images of eternity skip shamelessly through my mind Pain surrounds, I am resolved to be - still I run my hand on the tear stained window And distorted through it Watch children playing on the lawn. |
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1999
Bec
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98 Visitor Comments (from the Voting form)
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AniThe images of your words are beautiful. keep writing. one day you might find an angel. **smiles and disappears**
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spenceri know how you feel love the way you wroke it though
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paigethank you so much for wrighting this poem this is how i feel every day and its good to no that im not the lonly one who feels this way thanh you keep up the great work
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claire mareeI really enjoyed this poem. It was, in my opinion, well written and well received. I hope to see more of your poems in the future (which means you aren't dead). Caboodles of thanks for the poem, from Me!
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Heavenly Demonici love your poem because i can relate to it. i used to cut myself but i do not anymore because i have learnt that i have friends who care about me and that life is worth living. your poem means alot to me. thank you so much.
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Rebecathat is exactly how i feel and its good to know that people are feeling the same pain im feeling and it lets you know that your not the only one i really liked it
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laurenit was so good i could pic er it in my head i wha t to do that sometmes to my slef well nothing els to say bi bi
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MirelaWow. Your poem gave me chills as I thought that there are people feeling this way and doing what your poem described. You have skills!
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AmberI thinks its really really good and yeah its just really good and really really true.
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mkBeautiful absolutly entrancing. I do the same thing as i look for some way to get through every day and not die. i feel the pain also. just know i'm with you.
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camarai liked your poem. it was really great. It was written greatley. good job and keep writing.
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KristineI love this poem, It's exactly how i feel sometimes. I relate to it.
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KristyThis poem touched my very soul because I can understand it completely. I'm glad that I can relate to others who have had similar experiences but if I had the choice and so did others I'm sure they would have preferred to not go through that type of agony. Thankyou for writing this poem and sending it to this website so that others can see it and know that they aren't alone.
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sharonI love this poem cuz it relates to me alot . it's good to know im not alone. It's really deep and touching. i can feel your pain.
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Gemmaeyoung children seen playin thru a window while slicin ur wrists is exactly wat self mutilators feel like inside they feel like they will always be the child or person locked away and will never be able to play again. this poem shows exactly who i was and who many other ppl were and are.
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shaniyour poem is deep. i love it. it remindsme a lot of myself. cool.
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DanielleThis is one of the most Beutiful poems I have ever read. Reminds me of mine at times. Well done hun x Danielle 15
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NikkiI was really touched by this poem. It just sord of jumped out to me. I am a cutter and I relate so much to the things Bec said in the poem. You are gifted as a writer, and also as you do, I write. Thank you for posting that!
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kekythat poem was deep. it was like what i had done to me. u can see me scars and know
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beckiehey. this poem really touched mem when i read it i started to cry. it really hit me, if you kow what i mean . well odne on rtin thid poem . i hpe you will rite somemore ok lots of love becci
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lenastrange, how suddenly I'm not the only one to do such (let's admit it - foolish) things anymore. it feels good to know i'm not the only one.
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twitchwow. you have no idea how deeply that touched me.
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TiffI understand and I know how you feel, I've felt it too.
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Allie aka Rabbitthat was soooo touching! that is what i needed! here i thought i was all alone but im not! thank you for writing and posting that! it trueley helps!
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sarai loved your poem. it reallyy touched me. i loved it. ur a good person tht thinks of good poems
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Amanda-JeanWow. Talented poem writer.
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spongethis is amazing, it describes how i feel, except i usually use scissors not a razor blade, im trying to stop now, anyway this is an excellent poem, well done
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chelseathis poem was unbeleivable. it definatly spoke to me, and im really glad I had the chance to read it.
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STEFFYall i can say is WOW!
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ashleeI loved your poem. Many others probably say this but your poem touched my soul. I loved the expression and how it is exactly how i feel and what i used to do this poem helps ease the pain i knowing that others do it to. thanks ash
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SamThis poem was pretty damn awesome. I know how it is to cut and I know the feeling that you have to just let go. But you put it into words so much better than I will ever be able to. I LOVED IT! -Sam
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kerrii have made so many friend that cut themselves and i am scared to death that something might go wrong! this poem has made them really relize alot of stuff! i thank you for writing this poem
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Dannicathis poem is really deep. i like it
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AmandaThough some may think this is a little overboard. I like it a lot b/c it's how I write as well. Not everyone will understand your metaphors and hidden links. but I think we're on the same page. Keep your chin up and keep expressing yourself through poetry. Sometimes this is the only way to keep your hopes alive. Peace
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RhysBeautiful. Beautiful, you have absolutely entranced me. It makes me feel understood in my world of loneliness.
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WalterI loved this poem, it was a real vivid and strong poem, i loved it
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MikeI think that this was one of the best poems i have had the privellege to read. It almost perfectly describes my encounter with selfmutalation. It was very descriptive and dark. Beautiful poem.
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Izi also used to use blades to ease pain. but one day when things were really bad, i promised my mother i wouldn't hurt myself. i suggest that you promise to someone you won't do this, it helps knowing someone cares. remember, it is a choice. hope this helps
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KyleDude. Wow. it is so like what i think about doing its like. Wow. The pain we all share!
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ElizabethI see myself in the poem. Great wording. *claps softly*
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amandawow i feel so bad. that is really sad. mabey you should write other poems, such as this one. every time yu want to do this. That way instead of soing it you write about what you would do. Use you gift as a writer to benefit you emotionally.
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jinvery nice poem. 'live life with ease. take it ez =)'
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sassywow. umm yeah that was really touching. it makes me think really deep about everything that goes on in my life and how i feel exactly like the girl in the poem, every day :/ Really amazing job
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MzHey. i used to have a probelem like that to when i was much younger. i totally understand what yur goin through. we all expericence pain in diffrent wayz but sometimes deal wth it the same way
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TylerThis was just lovely, definitely keep writing and sharing it with all of us.
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Hannahi just wanted to say that you poem rilly touched me!
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annettethis poem was absolutely wonderful. i mean i could really understand how you felt. i wish my poetry was more like that
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DeniseGee, it's great ! No, it's better than great. So sad lah, and so like me.
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CarineOh, boy. Strong meaning. I love it! It's touching.
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MalloryI'm glad to kno that there are other people who understand what i went thru b4. My parents thought i was crazy when they seen the cuts and scars on my legs that were self-inflicted. because i was depressed and felt everything going wrong was my fault. I can totally relate to this poem and its really sad. i hope everything gets better for u and u find a way out
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donnaI feel you in this poem. I feel that there is alot of confusion wheather to do it or not. Im there, I just wish I can put it into words instead of action
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KariI can relate so much actually, i have a self injury problem too, an eating disorder and ive tried to commit suicide also, but you have to know you can make it, you seem like such a beatiful person, and if I was right by you i'd reach over and hug you haha, good luck! Great poem!
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melanienice a very good and deep poem i know how the person in the poem is talking about cos i go through it allot
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Morgani really liked the meaning of your poem i wish i could write like u
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jessicaoh my god. this is an excellent poem.
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candacei love this poem. me and my other friend who feels this way read it over and over again. it's so descriptive, and says everything. we all feel you're pain, we know that pain, it's inside us.
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Kyleevery nice, i have plenty of poems that i have written about this type of "release". and i'm always intrigued when i read other poems about cutting.
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BrittanyThis poem shows every image, every thought, every memory of things i have done in the past and still do, it shows. me
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JuriA beautiful poem. I like how the author wraps the poem up. seeing the children play clearly through the window. then at the end,"distorted" ^^. And I LOOOVE the alliteration. lots of devices used here! :)
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Kelliewow. that poem so easily could have been about me, it's exactly how i feel, what i do. thankyou for putting my life into such wonderful words. you are an amazing writer.
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JessThis was a very touching poem. This poem really represents what i used to do, and what i used to feel like. It was incredible.
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JasminHey I loved your poem, it sound like things I do. It really touched me well in a way yeah. but I wanted to say no one should go through with that . Yeah
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WhitneyI havent done thant in about a year and half. My mind still revisits it every day but somehow iwithstand the need for release. The scars are enough to explaine to strangers i cant imagine explaining it to my future children. what am i gingt say opps i fell and andedon a rake.
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Alize'Yor poem is sad but it is well written and it is so real. u can just picture it ,It is a very good poem
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sarahhey,i just wanted to say that this poem rwally touched me. i read this poem and i wept. u r reallygoodat poetry. great job on this one.
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LizzieIt's beautiful. It's like you're telling a story of how I feel. It helps to know that there are others who feel similarly.
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sarahi thought it was beautiful. keep writing!
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AmandaYour poem is really good. It's one of those ones that have to be read slowly to fully understand what you're feeling. I love those poems; awesome job. I also love it cuz that's exactly what I do too. Anyways, it's an awesome poem :)
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JessicaThis poem is a really sad but true one for me. I use to cut my self. But I stopped. I am okay with a couple of scars. But I love this poem!
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little_chickadeei truely love this poem! It's deep. very deep, and it was likely only meant to describe one persons feelings, your own of course, but describes many others feelings also. man i wash i could write like you! keep up the good poetry! ps. i'm deeply sorry that you feel this way if it is you you are writing about (which i think it's obvious you are)
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lilymarvelous!
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Jasonthe imagary were really surreal the way life looks like from a veil of depression
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bunnythats the most beautiful poem ive ever heard but it is so sad its how i felt. good job! *hugs*
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angeVery true and touches my heart because i was at that place also, I used to think i was the only one who did that.
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JenIt is a great poem, just a sad revelation that it really does happen to so many people and no one notices it happening. like the children playing on the lawn, they just keep playing
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Mei have to say that you really did capture how you feel when cutting takes over your life. i really liked it. in a morbid way.
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SarahWOW that poem is very very good. I completely agree with where you are coming from. I do the same thing to escape my pain.
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Parthyo. your poem is amazing
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Girai used to. i used to cut myself. i thought it waz the rite thing. until da love of my love come into my life and saved me
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GregYou have an amazing talent, keep writing. This poem makes me think about what i do, and hopefully will help me stop cutting. Simply put, this was one of the best poems i have ever read, you put to words what coutless people feel everyday, but cannot express
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sarahi loved your poem. it reminds me of me
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blahi know how you feel
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JoelHey, Bec love your poem. That sounds like me. But Bec cutting cant really help you. It only drags me down deeper. Stay safe
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TarnySelf mutilation is an integral part of my life that I cannot escape despite all my attempts. your poem expresses how I feel. I see happiness but do not feel it.
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RichThis is a beautiful poem. I think I am one of the only guys to post that I have been there and done it. You can express what I feel through words I can never find. Thank you.
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MANDAHey im not gonna say i know how you feel likeeveryone else does cus its true no one can understand anyone elses pain i do deal with my problems the same way as you though i will tell you that.
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naythat poem was totally me.
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MANDAwow you wrote that poem about me huh? cause thats juss like me!
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noYep, happens to the best of us.
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Jessicathis poem is wonderful i think it really explains what it is like to be in that state of mind, i know cuz i have been there you are a very talented poet!
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angelThis is amazing. Ive never know anybody who has felt like I have.
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mythWhat can I say, I no longer cut but it awaked the feelings i used to feel when i did. You writing is somethign specail keep it up.
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SueBec your poem is quite moving. The imagery is strong and creates a mood of despair. It's caputured a feeling or emotion within me that I had yet to identify. Thank you for sharing this with us and I hope that you have moved through this dark period of your life.
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CandaceThanx for the poem. I like it allot. That's what I do when I'm mad and depressed. Thanx again, it's great. Yuo should write more.
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TIFFANYI RELATE TO THIS.
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AnnahI USED TO FEEL THIS WAY. MY BF WAS SUICIDAL, I REALIZED WHAT I WAS DOING WAS JUST AS DUMB AS HIM TRYING TO KILL HIMSELF. NOW, I PROMISED HIM THAT I WOULD NEVER EVER DO THAT AGAIN.
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SUSANAI LOVE THIS POEM,BECAUSE IT DESCRIBES HOW I FEEL,AND HOW I DEAL WITH MY DARK PAIN.
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luckyno one should eva feel this way evreyone has the right to feel secure and safe, i'm sure there's someone out there to love everyone
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