#78 Stranger
Sometimes people become what they least expected they would. Sometimes they do things they never expected they would. The realization of this is overwhelming.
This is my description of when I realized I had been taken over by bulemia
This poem originally was published in Poems on Life - Poems on Society
Stranger
I stand in front of the mirror And wipe the fog away My vision is still hazy From ridding myself this way My hair is all in tangles My eyes are filled with tears I wipe the warm tears away As if trying to rid myself of my fears I'm ashamed of what I have done But it hurts me even more I can't make myself stop doing it Even though I know what's in store It has taken over my mind It is eating away at my soul My throat burns with anger While my stomach growls even more I am still looking in the mirror Yet I don't know who I see All that I know Is this sad sight couldn't be me I grip the edge of the counter So tightly that my knuckles turn white I want to scream out in anger At this ugly sight It's your fault I hiss That I do this to myself If only you didn't look this way I would be in better health I cover the image in the mirror With the palm of my hand And notice a cut on my finger That I never knew I had I grab my hand in anger Or is it more like fright I'm just so shocked To see this sight I laugh and then I cry Then crumble to the floor Suddenly aware of my problem Like I never was before How did this happen to me? How did I become a statistic? I thought that I was strong, I thought I was better than that My head throbs in anger My throat burns with pain My finger loses a drop of blood And Nothing is what I have gained |
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1999
Ghegi25
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20 Visitor Comments (from the Voting form)
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FVery touching; nice imagery about a very real problem. I will share this with others who have a similar problem.
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paulineThis poem is a reflection of how so many people live their lives, not knowing who they really are deep down. I loved it!
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ninai loved it you took the words right out of my mouth
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TomikaThis poem absolutely touched my soul! Its is comforting to know that I do not struggle with this illness alone. I printed this and have it in my bathroom and on my refrigerator to remind me of how awful I feel when I do this to myself and hopefully prevent me from doing it again. It is so easy to forget how alwful and worhtless it makes you feel, and you have given me a constant reminder to break the cycle. Thanks
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MarkSuperb poem. Invokes all kinds of images and memories. Keep up the good work.
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jadlyi like you peom. it reminds me of tons of my friends. lots of teenagers do that kinda of stuff and we don't even realize they do. how you described it in your peoms is how my friends described it to me
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VivThis poem made me cry. To feel someones raw anguish is a painful and beautiful thing
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jennyi have been there and i have learned that i dont do nething ppl who read your poem should relize that if it isnt already to late for that
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josieyou've got real talent girl, that is beautiful
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kristii really enjoyed this poem. it was so powerful. i understand how hard it is to go through this. i used to be bulemic and i know how hard it must be. stay strong!
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NikkiHaving lived with eating disorders for years(including bulimia), I can totally relate. Good poem.
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kelseyi was at a point in my life back in november wen i finally realized i had a drinking problem. your poem expressed everything that i was feeling at that point of time. your poem was excelent
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DanAwesome. Just awesome.
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Epeople go through stuff like that all the time. its a very reality based poem
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AnnI think your poem was excellent ! You show a great talent because you have an insight from within yourself giving you an edge on most poets. One must feel intense about the person, place or thing they are writing about. I give you a score of 100%. I am very impressed. It was a joy to read your poem. Thank you for sharing such a work of art.
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HannaThis poem really touched my heart. I think that others with this problem should read it to realize themselves that they are hurting themselves
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KarenI completely understand. I am in recovery right now and I have been able to relate to this poem too many times. Thankyou for letting people know what pain Bulemia causes.
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joycedear ghegi25 your poem was really deep, I truly liked it!
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lizaI really like this poem cuz our society has to do alot with our actions, fears,and atittude towards things. I think that as we see skinny models we just wanna be like them and without knowing it start changing in different ways.
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DavidI can relate with this poem deeply.Very good
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